So here I am writing in a new blog. I finally got around to changing my blog address and picture. Sometimes it takes me a long time and much prompting to do things. Sorry to everyone who has been wondering how I am and have had no response. I am doing fine… I think.
Just kidding, I really am doing fine. I just finished having a little holiday with Amanda. Needless to say time with Amanda is always good but you're not allowed to hide from God when you're around her. I may have spent a lot of time hiding recently. I mean, sure, it's not life giving but it's easy. Alright I need life.
So now I'm trying to choose life, even if it's hard (and for some reason it is). I'm trying to figure out how I can bring Heaven here even when I feel so defeated it's like hell. Sometimes it's like I have forgotten who I am and what brings me life so I try all these things that use to bring me life. But I'm not who I use to be. I've changed. Being back at my parent's house is always hard like that. I feel like I'm still in High School. I try so hard to make sure that other people don't see me as that same "kid". But it's not them, it's me. I still see myself as that "kid" and end up acting subconsciously like that "kid". A friend of mine recommended that I spend some time figuring out what my passions are. Figuring out who I am. It's like at one point I knew it, but I can't remember. That leaves me trying to figure out who I am and who I am not. I feel like I've already done this but it's a necessity to do it again. So here's a secret that I don't share with many people. I want to teach. I love sharing the Word of God. That's why I want to take a School of Biblical Studies. I want to know the Bible so I can teach it. I also love worship. Sometimes I feel insecure in my ability to play the guitar, but I know it pleases God. So now I've shared my secrets and you, my friends, get to hold me to them. And thank you to my friends who knew these and hold me to them.
Also I've learned that I like board games. I think they're great quality time. I just discovered a game called Killer Bunnies. So if you ever need an extra to play games, call me.
Oh ya. As I'm trying to get more "with it" I made a myspace page. It's at http://www.myspace.com/koushus I have some pictures up. If you have myspace you should add me.
